This afternoon I have been feeling a tad under the weather, sore throat, sick, tired, upset tummy.
My best friend has been giving – or at least starting to give – birth.
I think her pain trumps my “weakness”.
I remember childbirth. I have been through it twice. I know it was painful but I can’t feel that pain.
When I was about 11, I think, I had 4 teeth removed. For years after I could feel the pain – not of the extraction- but of the injections they gave me beforehand. A real ache in my gums.
Strange and extraordinary, then, that after a week or so I couldn’t feel the pain of childbirth..
I was lucky enough to give birth naturally both times. I had gas and air and a tens machine. No drugs.
First time I was terrified. I didn’t think I would know what a contraction felt like, no-one could definitively tell me what it was like. I panicked. I was scared that I wouldn’t know when my waters broke. Of course when it happened it was all fairly obvious.
During childbirth, you want to push, you even try to push, but at some point that desire turns to an actual need to push. Not helpful when the midwives then tell you to stop pushing as they have decided that they need to make a small cut…..
Then baby is there, whisked off to be weighed and measured and then given back to you.
As I mentioned in a previous post this is when hubby electrocuted me…
After the birth you are very sore, and walk and sit very gingerly.
But then it’s forgotten.
And you choose (in my case anyway!) to do it again.
For me 2nd time was faster – when the real contractions kicked in anyway – and I practically had to beg to be taken to the labour ward and nearly gave birth in the lift…
I was surprised at the pain the 2nd time around. I had forgotten how intense it can be towards the end and had forgotten the feeling of massive pressure, a pretty good indicator baby was about to come.
The pain after though, this time round, was less – almost non-existent.
I was very lucky.
I have two great birth stories to share with my daughter when she is older.
But now it’s over.
I will probably not go through childbirth again.
And so, I wish all of you, that are preparing or going through it, all my luck.